Tuesday, November 29, 2005

Brent Shapiro

How many more DEATHS do we need, BEFORE ANYONE WILL UNDERSTAND WHEN YOU TAKE ECSTASY, YOU CAN DIE!

NOTE: The type that is blue is me, Beth

Brent Shapiro died after taking just half of an ecstasy tablet!! The word overdose doesn't even seem to fit with many of these deaths. We need to call it what it is, "It's ecstasy poisoning"

Here are some parts from the Larry King show.


For 18 months Brent Shapiro was sober. He was doing incredibly well at USC. He had decided he was going to go to law school, even though he was in a specialized music school there in a specialized program for music industry, which he loved and wanted to get into.

And so, you know, if you asked me this two or three years before, I'd say every night I'd expect a call. You never know when that call is coming. But for 18 months to see the smile on this kid's face. He never was happier. He had everything he wanted in life. He was a giant sports fan and USC was undefeated. He just had everything going for him.

KING: How good a brother was he, Grant?

G. SHAPIRO: The best brother anybody could ask for. He just had such a big heart and he would, you know, place his friends and family before himself in the snap of a second.


What a horrible nightmare! My heart goes out to the whole family and to everyone who has to lose someone to drugs! It's especially tragic when it's talked about so much as being safe!

I'm now going to add to this, and I hope all of you are as pissed off as I am. I am going to be searching the internet and telling all of you what the dangerous idiots out there are telling our kids. I'm done with being polite to those who endanger our kids and plain don't give a you know what. I will not even allow any comments on this site that entertain or imply that Ecstasy, Ketamine, GHB, DXM or Binge Drinking is O.K. to do! If you do it and you survived Good for you! BUT NOT everyone does, and I will not have anymore stupid debates on this subject going on, on MY site! If you want to talk about these drugs and how you think they are O.K. Start your own weblog and say what ever the hell you want!

I stopped posting on my own site for a while because I couldn’t take the stupid debating, it was draining me, and bringing me down and away from what I do best. This weblog is just a supplement to what I really do. I make true stories about what happened to kids and their families when their child either chose to take on their own OR were slipped these drugs! Please fgo to my web site to see more on the kids and the previews and so much more.


Here are one person’s thoughts on ecstasy. See what you think. I’ll of course put in my opinion to!


Here it is:

Let me stop here for just a second before I continue this article for a Harm Reduction Public Service Announcement.
Note: Harm reduction is now being admitted as a real mistake in Australia. (Beth)
The same one that my youngest daughter at 19 years old hears from me, her father. IF YOU DECIDE TO TAKE ECSTASY DO NOT DRINK ALCOHOL! Period!

Sounds like great father of the year advise to me?

Had Cathy Isford heard that from the DEA as a truthful message passed from them on to her by her parents (instead of politically driven propaganda which bears little relation to the reality of the street or the medical facts) she likely could have been alive today.


Cathy barely even had any alcohol at all; the truth here is she died from the ecstasy, PERIOD! I have a copy of her autopsy report; there was no alcohol in her system. She took 2 pills.

The LA Times also reported that Isford was no stranger to ecstasy and there was a letter to the editor published which also brought up harm reduction.

Jim White from Oregon, Ohio wrote "Would Isford be here today if drug education included factual, honest information rather than zero tolerance, zero intelligence, zero responsibility and do-nothing, feel-good propaganda?

What?? Man where do I even begin with this one? How do you teach honest information about something that who knows who is making, what they are putting in the pills and how strong they are? Come on Get Real here!

If we had a second chance, would we tell her something else, something that might have saved her life, even if she didn't "just say no"?"
YES! I wish she had been able to see what happened to the other kids, before it was too late for her. When Cathy died, I was just getting the money together to buy my equipment to make the film. I couldn't stand the thought that another person died, before I could get the film out there.


What do we say now to Irma Perez's family? Irma and so many other teens DID NOT DRINK ANY ALCOHOL AT ALL! More on Irma real soon. I'll be talking to her sister who raised her, (their mother died young)

we’ll be talking about the Alcohol theory more!

Be back soon!

Take care and Please be safe!

Beth

P.S Be sure to look in at the comment section.

20 comments:

Michael said...

I have never and would never tell anyone that MDMA is safe, its not, you'd be a fool to think it was.

But, there is a difference between that, and saying its really dangerous, because it isnt. Given the number of users and the number of people who die from it, it is not massively dangerous.

Of course, it is not only short term harm which is an issue, MDMA is thought to be linked to depression, and there is research to suggest that it causes long term neuron damage. Though what effect that has is unclear.

Where we differ I think is our reaction to these tragic deaths. You believe that if we say MDMA kills people often enough people will stop using it. I think experience shows us this is not the case, anti-drugs messages have been going out for 20 years plus and the amount of people using always increases.

I would never encourage people to use MDMA (though I do think it has potential in therapy) but if they are going to I think it is best to tell them how to minmise the risk.

Take the example of the father you mentioned, is it better for him to repeat 'MDMA is dangerous' over and over and then the kid ignore him or for him, knowing its risky, to advise the kid how to lessen the risk?

Steve said...

There's also evidence to suggest Brent was an alcoholic, drank alcohol that night and also suffered from a condition called mitral-valve prolapse, or a heart murmur.

Though ecstasy surely played a part it could be said there were other factors involved in his death.

Either way it's tragic.

Beth said...

The problem here is that no one knows who Ecstasy will KILL.

Michael wrote: Where we differ I think is our reaction to these tragic deaths.

Beth says: YES! I cry everytime I read about another death! NONE of these kids should have their life ripped away from them at such an early age! And as long as they think, as so many websites seem to want to say: "Ecstasy is safe" or "Not that many people die from it!" there will be more deaths!

Michael wrote: You believe that if we say MDMA kills people often enough people will stop using it.

Beth says: YES! Only I don't say this in the DVD's, the families do.
I SHOW not TELL!

Micheal wrote: I think experience shows us this is not the case, anti-drugs messages have been going out for 20 years plus and the amount of people using always increases.

Beth says: My DVD's showing the real stories is working. Like I've said so many times to you guys, this weblog is just a supplement to what I really do!
MAYBE IT'S A MISTAKE FOR ME TO EVEN POST ON A SITE!

READING ABOUT SOMETHING AND SEEING REAL PEOPLE SHARING AN EXPERIENCE ARE TWO TOTALLY DIFFERENT EXPERIENCE, AND RESEARCH REALLY DOES SHOW, THAT IF THE KIDS CAN SEE WHAT CAN HAPPEN AND FEEL THE EMOTION OF IT ALL, IT ABSOLUTELY DOES MAKE A DIFFERENCE!!

Micheal, if you send me, in an email your address I will send you the two DVD's for free, so you can really see what I do!

Steve said...

You said you wanted experiences and true stories only posted here, well here's my experience and my story of the choices I made and why I made them.

Whilst I was growing up I had 'Just Say No' repeatedly drummed into my head from parents and teachers alike. I've seen many films of 'real stories' and 'real tragedies' such as the story of Leah Betts, films that arn't too dissimilar from yours I would think.

For a long time I thought drugs were evil because of what I'd had installed in me, but I also had very little actual understanding of drugs and why they were dangerous, I was taught very little else apart from 'Just Say No'. I could even understand why people did them if they were so obviously dangerous.

Of course as I grew up I learnt a little more, I learnt from my mates and their older brothers as there really was anywhere else to learn from. They would tell me that drugs really arn't as bad as what everyone would have you believe, but I remained sceptical and for a long time I refused to try anything.

It finally dawned on me however, after seeing so many drugs being taken with so little ill effect that maybe what I'd been taught wasn't the complete truth. I decided to find out for myself and started experimenting.

Now I soon realised for myself that most of what I'd been taught was rubbish, that drugs could indeed give you wonderful experiences, and I decided to try other things.

Now the problem then was that without the internet there was very little proper advice on how to minimize the risks. All I had was the wisdom of fellow drug takers, which I'm sure you'll agree can be very dangerous. There are so many myths out there surrouding drugs use, much of it stems from the governement and the media. Infact misinformation from the media is precisely why Leah Betts died.
I look back now and it scares me how I used to take drugs, I simply wasn't aware of some of the risks, risks that can easilly be avoided.

I have been fortunate that despite the lack of honest information, I have never had a bad experience with drugs in the 10 years I've been taking them.

But I still see these myths flying around, some of them dangerous and it worries me. It's made me realise that people that take drugs need to have the information there for them that could one day save their life.

We are bombarded with anti drugs information from the time we start school, both from the media, from the government and from parents and this has been going on 20 years. Why then do kids continue to take drugs?

I'm proof that these stories don't stop kids from taking drugs and there are millions more kids who will be just like me.

Now I respect your intentions on this site, but I cannot agree with your method.

My argument is not that your films won't save lives, because I'm sure they will and I supsect they've already reached a good number of kids. The problem is you don't cater for the kids who will take drugs regardless, how are you going to save their live or are you not bothering with them?

I just think that you need to compliment your tragedies with honest information.

Of course this experience may not be the run of the mill story for you site and so again may suffer from censorship, but it's honest and true.

Michael said...

Of course, in an ideal World no child would die while using drugs. But then that could be said for car crashes, horse riding.....etc. The list is long and unfortunately we cant bubble rap our kids.

We must try and equip kids with all the tools and information possible to make the safest choices possible.

Seeing testimony from parents and others who have had bad experiences will have an impact. But it can be only a short term answer, if the risk seems inflated then kids will dismiss the information. That's why I favor a more factual, rather than experience led approach.

Beth said...

YOU KNOW WHAT? We are all 3 in agreement that the "Just Say No" Does not work! In fact the first few sentences in "True Stories of Ecstasy and Ketamine" Dr. Ritter say, "The Just Say No, Kids sort of laugh at that, I like to tell the kids what can actually happen and that's the approach I take"

Another important point to clarify here is I don't talk about MDMA! I tell about Ecstasy! YES! There is a difference. Ecstasy is anything that the person making the batch wants to put in the pills!

Another point I really need to make, is I am NOT the expert here! I let the FAMILIES AND THE EXPERTS tell everyone what can happen. And they do tell the kids what to do if they took something and are having a problem!

This is for the experts in these matters to tell not me! I relay what they say to all of you.

Part 2 in the Teen, or Young Adult Edition does just what you guys, don't know I do, IT TELLS THE KIDS WHAT TO DO, IF THERE IS A PROBLEM!

I want to list the chapters here, maybe you'll have a better understanding of what I do, and the fact that I am not a government agency, I AM A MOM WHO REALLY HAS A PASSION ABOUT HELPING KIDS, AND FAMILIES.

Here is the list of chapters:
IT WON'T HAPPEN TO ME!

WARNING SIGNS AND HELPING YOUR FRIENDS.

WATCHING YOUR FRIENDS AND CALLING 911.

THE RAPE ASPECT

WHY AM I SO SAD A FORGETFUL?

WHAT'S WITH THESE CUTE LITTLE PILLS

MYTHS AND MISCONCEPTIONS

IT'S YOUR CHOICE WHAT WILL YOU CHOOSE

WHAT ABOUT ALCOHOL?

All I did was listen to the familes and experts and I put together something that I KNOW for a FACT, KIDS DO NOT LAUGH AT.

You guys are always talking about a different approach, and I COULDN'T AGREE WITH YOU MORE AND THAT IS EXACTLY WHY I DID SOMETHING DIFFERENT!

The Media is horrible about telling the tragedies, BUT NOT THE SOLUTION! I can't tell you how crazy that makes me. There is a solution with what I do, or I would have never done this!

WHY DO THE SAME OLD LAME THING? I was tired of the fact that the ols ways DO NOT WORK! The kids and families need something different, I knew not to ask the government to help me with this, (#1 It would have taken forever and #2 I didn't want to censor it for anyone!)

I USED ALL OF MY OWN MONEY, SO I HAD NO BUTTS I HAD TO KISS!

YES I AM A REBEL AND ALWAYS HAVE BEEN AND I HATE STUPID! Wasting our government money for something that is not work IS STUPID!

You know the weirdest part here?
BECAUSE I AM SELF FUNDED AND NOT A NON PROFIT, (actually I am a huge negative profit) I don't even have enough money to fix my editing computer so I can work on GHB, DXM and Alcohol. AND I also have a real job too! I help my husband with his company, (paying the bills, invoicing, ect, ect.) Wow I digressed, THE MEDIA AND PEOPLE will have no interest in helping me spread the word about a different approach! NO ONE CAN GET THE FACT THAT I DID THIS ON MY OWN, I DIDN'T USE TAX PAYERS OR ANYONE ELSES MONEY! I guess they just can't BELIEVE, ANYONE WOULD BE THAT STUPID TO USE ALL THEIR OWN MONEY,(The count is $200,000 and still growing) AND HAVE NO GREEDY alterior motive!!

IT'S A SHAME THAT PEOPLE WITH TRULY GOOD HEARTS, CAN GET SO STOMPED ON BY THE GROUP THAT DOESN'T GET THAT THERE ARE ALOT OF GOOD PEOPLE OUT THERE, THAT DO WANT TO HELP!

I'LL TELL YOU ANOTHER THING! I SEE WHY MORE PEOPLE WON'T PUT THERE ASSES ON THE LINE FOR OTHERS, when you have a huge risk of being kicked around for trying!

What you all don't know, is I do get private e mails asking me questions about the certain drugs, I will copy and paste the info (so no one sees who it came from) and I forward it to an expert that I know specializes in that particular drug and I get an answer for them)

IN CLOSING: I AM NOT THE EXPERT! I MERELY HELP GET THE INFO AND ANSWERS FOR THOSE WHO NEED IT!

P.S. Well it's invoicing time again, back to my other job!

Steve said...

Our question is what you think the best way of cutting the number of tragedies amongst those that are going to take drugs regardless of the message your films carry?

Beth said...

MY ANSWER TO THE QUESTION ABOVE IS,

IF THERE SEEMS TO BE ANY HINT OF TROUBLE YOU CALL 911!

YOU DON'T WAIT, DONT'T BE IN DENIAL THAT THERE IS A PROBLEM WITH YOU OR A FRIEND,

YOU JUST CALL! 911

THIS IS THE MOST IMPORTANT THING FOR EVERYONE WHO CHOOSES TO DO A HIGH RISK ACTIVITY, YOU NEED TO NOT ALLOW YOU OR OTHERS AROUND YOU TO DENY THE FACT THAT THERE IS A PROBLEM! (REMEMBER THE PERSON HAVING THE PROBLEM IS THE ONE THAT NEEDS THE OTHERS TO HELP HIM OR HER OUT! THEY'RE NOT DOING WELL AND THEY CAN'T THINK!)

THE VERY NATURE OF ECSTASY GIVES EVERYONE THE FEELING THAT EVERYTHING IS O.K. SO IT'S EASY TO THEN NOT SEE THAT SOMEONE IS HAVING A PROBLEM.

THERE HAVE BEEN KIDS WHO HAVE MOVED SOMEONE THAT'S IN A REAL MEDICAL CRISIS INTO ANOTHER ROOM, 'BECAUSE THE NOISE WAS BOTHERING THEM!"

ALL OF THIS INFORMATION IS IN EITHER THE TEEN EDITION OR THE PARENT EDITION.

TOP PRIORITY ON EVERYONE'S MIND NEEDS TO BE TO CALL 911.

DON'T EVEN ENTERTAIN THESE THOUGHTS:

THEY'LL BE O.K.

THEY'LL SLEEP IT OFF.

OR WORSE: WHAT IF I CALL AND IT'S REALLY NOT THAT BAD? I SAY SO!!!!!! YOU ARE NEVER EVER EVER WRONG TO CALL!

THIS IS WHAT ALL OF THE DOCTORS AND THE EXPERTS TOLD ME!

HOPE THIS HELPS!

Michael said...

You are quite right, there can be a big difference between the pills people buy and MDMA, a result of the black market unfortunately. Something which is especially bad in the US because of the tight laws and high price.

I think Steve was more refering to harm reduction so an emergency situation is less likely. Obviously the message to contact and ambulance is very important because some drug users are reluctant because of the law. But other things can be done before this point to reduce the risk of serious harm.

Water consumption for example, not drinking alcohol, testing pills before you use them, not buying from strangers...etc.

Gayle said...

Ectasy has destroyed my son's life. The use of this drug has been at epidemic proportion for several years now and is being swept under carpets all over this country. No one wants to admit it is a problem in their town. My son was a very good athlete and was introduced to this drug at a neighborhood party. He began hallucinating and knew something was wrong. An ambulance was called and he was brought to the hospital where he was given tylenol for his headache and released that same evening and told not to do drugs anymore!! He walked home at 3:00 AM 5 miles and could have been killed because he was so high. He continued to hallucinate for several weeks and finally committed to a psychiatric hospital where he spent the next two months heavily medicated. It has been four years and he has never been the same. He is on 3 different meds, is 100% disabled, is unable to hold down a job, and is not the same person he once was. He used to be a happy fun-loving kid who made friends easily and was a likeable human being. Despite the medication, he is now unhappy, depressed, irritable, unreasonable, and unmotivated. Hospitals and professionals are ill equiped and not up to date on exactly what this drug does. Psychiatrists are treating their patients with medication that simply doesn't work after an ectasy drug overdose. I don't know what is going to become of my son at this point. My entire family has been affected by this drug. Young adults need to be bombarded with real life information on this drug in an effort to prevent this from happening to anyone else!

Anonymous said...

I JUST READ ABOUT BRENT. I MEET HIM A FEW TIMES HIS FIANCEE IS MY FRIEND AND MY HEART BREAKS FOR HER AND THE LOST OF THE LOVE OF HER LIFE. THEY WERE TO GET MARRIED THIS YEAR. HE WAS HER SOUL MATE HER LIFE HER EVERYTHING. HE WAS CLEAN AND HAD A TOOK ONE LITTLE PILL AND SHE LOST HIM FOREVER. THERE ARE SO MANY STORIES GOING AROUND AS WHAT HAPPENED TO HIM. IT SUCKS UNLESS YOU KNOW THE TRUTH ABOUT WHAT HAPPENED THAT FAITH FULL NITE HE DIED. BRENT IS FOREVER LOOKING OVER ALL HIS LOVED ONES AND FAMILY NOW. REST IN PEACE BRENT

Beth said...

PLEASE FEEL FREE TO LET US KNOW WHAT YOU KNOW AND HOW YOU FEEL ABOUT THIS SUBJECT.

Anonymous said...

I just came across your site. I did not post the earlier comment, but I would love to share with you, the incredible love that brent and his fiance shared. As a long time friend of them both, there relationship was like something straight out of a motion picture. They were a beautiful couple, always laughing, always supporting each other and never apart for more than hours. Brent often said, as he did the week before his passing, in a toast for his fiances birthday "She turned me from an unhappy, dark, miserable kid, to the happiest man on earth". There love was magical to watch and inspired everyone that met them. She was brents rock and he was hers. Brent was sober and happy for the first time in his life because of her. Contrary to popular belief brent never was sober in his families home. He may have been from age 13 and under, but not after that. He embraced sobriety when they moved in together and under their roof. She loved him unconditionally, supported him in everything he ever needed or wanted to accomplish and allowed him to be exactly who he was and he just strived. The last memory of them that I have, before her birthday dinner, was when I was having lunch in Beverly Hills with my mom. We saw the two of them walking hand in hand with their dogs down beverly blvd just laughing and kissing each other. They were too cute. They came over to say hello and showed us the save the date cards that they had just picked up from the printer for their wedding. They also shared with my mom and myself these silly halloween toys they had just purchased for their dogs. He also showed us a new tattoo he had just gotten of his fiances entire face on his leg. They each had each others names on their ankles with an eternity symbol and they each had their wedding date tattooed on the side of their foot. He had gone out one night, told her he would be back soon and came home with this tattoo of her face on the back of his leg. It was incredibly done and looked just like her. She was beaming as she always did around him. My mom had never met brent and instantly commented as they walked away, what a beautiful couple they made. They just exuded happiness and love and were so grateful for one another. Brent had no problem expressing his love to her to his guy friends, total strangers, anyone who would listen. He was grateful for her love, told her he loved her constantly and as she said at his funeral "she was so grateful to have found her prince". It is important to know that she does not do drugs, condone drugs, the girl barely drinks. Also people should know she did not keep brents drinking a secret. He came to her and to me and to so many and expressed his decision. He felt that he didnt believe he had a drinking problem, but knew that he had battled drugs in the past and believed them to be, in fact that, a problem of his past. He didnt ever want to go back to a life where drugs ruled his life and she would have never allowed that to happen. She protected brent all the time from parties, events, even his friends drug use, anything that would bring drugs close to brent. She didnt keep the occasional drink for 2 months that he had a secret. Almost all of brents friends knew of this and most of them had a drink with him. Whether at a sports event, concert or poker game. Brent would have one, max two drinks, would never drive and showed her and all of his friends, that he was in control. He had expressed to many, that he wanted to share his decision with his family and drug counselor, after he could prove by his actions, that he was capable of in fact this, the occassional social drink. If for one minute this ever got out of control, his fiance or any of us, would have intervened and showed complete concern. No one ever did because brent was still doing everything he always had, studying hard, working out and attending his classes that he loved. He was as responsible as he ever was. That terrible tragic night brent went from talking with friends to looking as if he was going to be sick. His fiance asked him if he was alright and he said yes. She and his friends still took him outside to get some air and he began to vomit. She was concerned at how quickly he had gotten sick and called out for someone to call an ambulance. A medic at the party came rushing out, and from what I have been told by many, took over the entire situation. He sat down with brent and took his vitals and spoke with him. They were concerned brent may have taken something because he had gotten so sick so quickly. They expressed this to the medic and he told them to take brent home, give him water and stay up with him in case he needed to vomit again. He told them that there was nothing the ER could do for them that they couldnt do at home. He needed water and rest and he would be fine. Everyone there looked at her like she was crazy and overreacting for wanting to go to the hospital. She didnt want to be home alone with brent if he got sick, so she went to a friends house, along with his and her friends, where they all followed the directions of the medic. After talking with brent, giving him fluids and staying up with him as he rested, he suddenly began to look as if he was going to be sick again and he began choking and he went into cardiac. 911 was called immediately and he fell into a coma at the hospital and past away the next day. She is completley devastated, a skeleton of who she used to be. She walks around in a daze, crying every single day, the only thing that gets her through and I believe has kept her here with us, is her faith in god and a belief that she needs to be here and live out gods will for her, in order for her to be with her beautiful brent again. That and her friends, family, therapy and their two adorable dogs that she loves and brent loved more than anything. She also has a mission now to educate people on addiction and relapse, open sober living houses in brents name and do everything she can to keep his memory alive. She questions her decision of listening to the medic EVERY SINGLE DAY. She lost the love of her love that night. She always says "One minute I was dancing with the guest of honors parents and the next I am in the hospital and saying goodbye to him, I dont understand". I dont even really believe she has accepted it yet. And to top off this horror, every one of brents friends with the exception of 4, have completely abandoned her and blame her for brents death. His family blames her and has done awful things and said awful things about her. It is so tragic and so horrible, the way she has been treated. It breaks all of our hearts who are close to her, to see such an amazing and sweet girl, go through this and have all of this evilness put on her and to imagine what brent must be feeling seeing this all occur. She was his life and he was hers. I pray for all of brents friends, family and especially her to make it through this. I also want to remind people that brent was an angel on earth. Didnt have a bad bone in his body, lived life to the fullest and loved more than anyone. They should remember this and live their life with him in their hearts, their memories kept close to them and being good people like brent was. Not by hurting the one he loved the most. Brents death was a tragic, horrible accident. Please continue to spread the message that ecstasy can and will kill you. Even the smallest amount in your system can take you from the beautiful life you are to live here and the ones that love you the most. Thank you.

Anonymous said...

Unfortunately, as with any other substance or behavior problem, use in any given community will not curtail meaningfully until an aquaintance,(one who is perceived by his peers as 'reasonable' in his use), is hurt due to use of the drug. Casual users and those considering trying ecstasy,(of which there are many), can be convinced by these news items, and the message should be unceasing and blunt... but regular users have found something in the drug that they don't want to give up, and it will take dramatic experience to change their minds.

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Anonymous said...

RIP. Brent Did not know the guy, but understand he was a big USC fan. Heard about the story on CNBC.

I just want to say that brent seems like a guy who i could get along with. My condolences goes out to his Fiancee. Its bullshit that any blame would be put on her. Its a shame that medic didnt know what the hell he was talking about.

First sign of trouble is when you call for the ambulance. Anyways RIP Brent. Your in a better place, a place that is greater than this cruel, evil world. Im looking foward to meeting you one day once i get to Heaven.

May God show mercy on his family and friends, and to his fiance.

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Lady said...

just last weekend i took ecstasy for i believe the fifth or sixth time in my life. all past experiences were very positive and enjoyable- this time, something went horribly wrong.
i'm 21 years old and bought 8 pills from an acquaintance at work that i thought i could trust. the plan was to take one or two at a concert, but i decided to take one early since i had so many, partly to test it out and partly to make a not so enjoyable experience much more enjoyable. it was a horrible, horrible mistake.

i don't know if the pill was cut with pcp, or mescaline, or some terrible hallucinogen, but at the end of my peak, when i was enjoying myself the most, the coin flipped from a beautiful, happy world to a dark, oppressive world. as a happy, carefree person in general, i found myself face to face with an extreme panic attack. i thought i was going to die. i was 26,000 ft in the air on a plane by myself, and i thought my chest was going to explode and my blood was boiling in my veins. i thought the government was after me. worst of all, this continued from 7pm to 3 am, long after i came home and fell asleep in my boyfriends arms.

obviously it's only been four or five days. but i still don't know what to think.... was it my surroundings that triggered that? i'm so scared to take that drug again, and worst of all, i'm still extremely paranoid about the government- which is only kind of funny.

i truly believe that this argument is rather like the old preach abstinence or protection sex question. should we tell the kids not to have sex at all and leave it there? or should we take further steps to also reach the kids who will have sex regardless of the risks (stds, teen pregnancy, etc)?